INsecure~

Recently have been busy with school work... ... Knowing that actually there is still people out there viewing my blog, I shall update for the sake of them. Many things have happened and many thoughts have flash through my mind. Even though most of my friends, even my classmates will think that I'm an optimistic person. But they're wrong. I might look cheerful on the outside, but on the inside, my feelings get stumbled easily by small matters... ...I will always be as cheerful as I can in front of my friends . I hate to be blue in front of them. I don't want people to have this thought of protecting me because I looked weak. I want to be independent. I want to be strong. What men can do Women can also do it too. I have had this mindset since primary six. I always felt that there's something missing in my life that causes me to feel insecure... ... Is it Love or is it something else? I'm not really sure. All I know is that I can't Love, neither do I know what does Love means nor how to Love...